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the end is near - October 14, 2004 � � |
caught my first cold
January 26, 2004 - 6:04 pm it started saturday night, i could feel my throat getting sore and i tried to load up on vitamin c and echinacea plus but it was already too late. by sunday it had hit but it wasn't until today that it was full force. i woke up at 5am head clogged and all achy. the wind was howling like my neighbours dog.(who is howling right now) i did not want to get up and go to work. ug. i feel tons better right now but i was dragging my ass for the first few hours. but i managed to stave it off for this long, so i'm doing ok. this all coincided with troubles with courtney this past weekend. she decided to take a break from me for an indefinate period of time. i thought wrong that everything had been "patched" up the previous sunday. but that's the thing about patches, they'll eventually break again. i do want to fix everything so it's right again. that will take some time. yesterday was good in that we really talked some things and brought them out into the open. lately i've been increasingly having a problem getting my emotions out and trying to comfort courtney. there are many things i want to do but i feel like i'm trapped until this visa gets approved and i'm lacking some serious motivation. plus i'm depressed and that kind of is holding me back at times. lousy excuse but i have bigger issues that are in my head at this time. plus i'm barely staying afloat financially. now i'll shut up because i don't want a certain girlfriend to worry about me. the death of my car story still goes on...i found out that i'll be going to court soon because of this guy. then i have to deal with insurance and buying a "new" car. this sucks. i have to figure some things fast. but of course i have to wait to see what i'll get for old demo'd red. the bonus of this all is that i have a sebring that rides real nice. and the heater works! a fine automobile for sure. this january had been pretty crap. it snows almost every day and the avg. temp is -15C. i pray that feb. will be mild but i won't hold my breath. i'm fortunate to live where i do because i wouldn't want to be in calgary, whitehorse or anywhere near newfoundland. i'm sure somewhere in the book of life that being up here in the cold builds character. this weather just makes you want to stay inside and get close to someone. but when your someone is 400kms away you just make do with a cat.(isis) |
