ggggrrrrrrrrrrr!! i am pissed! pissed at the cloudy fuckin' clouds for ruining the chance at seeing a damn good eclipse. ruined!!!!! fuck! so it went on and we (southern crappa-dap-dap ontario) were shut out of the eclipse party. everytime something celestial happens(and yes i was whining to my kitten about it last night) around here

some clouds move in and fuck the whole scene up. bleh! oh, i could go on & on about missing this one. the next total eclipse of the moon is on nov. 8th. it's a saturday, i checked already. and wherever i may be, down south or up in winterland, i'm going to see it. we need some cloud busters to break up the grey in the sky. i think it would be cool to buy an old observatory.(if i was rich) and live there , say in the little house at the bottom. preferably in the desert. where it is warm and cloud free most of the time. ok enough dreaming.

second on the complaint list is , why the fuck is it taking so long to renovate this bathroom. i know how long it takes for tiles & grout to dry. i fuckin' worked in a tile store for ten fuckin' years! too much swearing? sorry. but seriously, they started wednesday. it's friday night. what the fuck?! not to mention, that i haven't had a shower in two days...the guy is suppose to finish up tonight. if he's not here in two hours, i'll be finishing it MY way.

that old saying, if you want something done right...etc. etc. so true.

there weren't to many jerks on the QEW today, driving back from work this afternoon. so that was nice. and by jerks i mean idiots who think they are race car drivers. you know? hmmp! therapy was ok. we all decided not to give me anymore drugs for the time being. just conselling. i could have used some emergency therapy last night. don't know exactly what it is. but maybe it's the weather that's gettin' me down. or the stupid things i continually do. vague. vague. i know.

sometimes i'm in a daze, sometimes the words just float by me. what the hell could i possibly be thinking about? life has been better in the past month. i see my girl on a regualr basis. i have money. i'm keeping myself busy at work. i don't feel like a bum. there's no snow on the ground. well, as soon as i figure it out, i'll spill it for y'all.

tomorrow i get to slip out of the country again. early morning,so to arouse the least amount of suspicion .

i don't think kit & i are used to seeing each other this many weekends in a row. next weekend it will be four.(in fact the whole month of may) that rocks!

but i can handle it. in fact, it renews my energy to see my girl every saturday.

i can't wait for friday at 4:30 to hit the clock. i'm like fred flinstone jumping of his brontosaurus and into his car. yabba-dabba-do. *everyone rolls their eyes* so now you know how happy i am.

monday is victoria day up here in canadaland. it's to celebrate her birthday. i think her actual b-day is may 24th, which explains how it's always called the may two-four weekend. and because we love to drink our "two-four" of beer, to kick off the almost endless summer "long-weekends". and i say almost because there is not one in june. and by god, there should be! i'll only mildly complain about this one. and i'm sure we could make a holiday up in june. there has to be a dead queen or prime minister begging to become a national holiday. how about good 'ol P.E.T.? when's his b-day? and if you want to pay homage to queen victoria, there's a huge statue in downtown hamtown you can hang out by. it's green and covered in bird crap. tsk tsk. they should get some of the punks who live down there, to clean it once and a while. or not. me done rambling now.

don't drink and drive. if i get hit by one of you clowns and i find out you've been drinking, i'll kill you!

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